the war.

we are in a war.


we are soldiers in the fight for our LORD to be lifted high. HE WILL be lifted high. count on that, it's the ONLY thing you can count on.

my current battle is a huge sense of confusion, an unsettled feeling, which is slowly morphing into a boat load of unmotivated-ness, geez, laziness really.

i'm 26. i have a bachelor's degree. i have a career, a ministry to serve through, a community...

but is the place i'm at, the place i should stay?

i don't mean geographically, although that could very well change if god wills it, i just mean my place...in life. i've felt this way before, and either overcame it or brushed in under the rug. if i brushed it under the rug, well i guess it's resurfacing.

do you ever wish you could google "what should i do with my life?" 

well, don't because all you'll find is this book, which i'm sure doesn't have the answers i'm looking for. but since it was the #1 new york times bestseller, i'm going to guess other people have googled this same question.

there are a number of things that go through my head when i think of new paths (teacher, full time ministry, artist, student, nightclub singer, counselor, business owner, chef, lotto winner, homemaker) some of these are attainable with some work, and almost all of them carry some huge obstacles along with them, and some of them are just silly but hey, no dream is too big right?

basically, i just need to be quiet and listen for HIS WILL for my life...since it's not mine anyway.  please pray for a settled spirit, a peaceful heart, and an obedient will, that is aligned with HIS.